The Latest Around Here

I have been terrible about updating this blog and so much has been happening lately.  Just a quick update- Carysn is crawling all over the place.  She pulls up to stand and gets into everything.  Her personality gets more silly everyday.  Both of my girls are the biggest hams...they constantly keep us laughing and on our toes.  Cooper has been having a blast at school and with her friends and being such a great big sister. 

This past weekend was the last for a couple months where we don't have a ton going on...we have birthday parties, swimming lessons, the Disney Live show and we are going on vacation.  And in less than seven weeks, big girl will be one years old!  I have had such a blast planning her party.  We have decided to turn the party into a low country boil (people here don't know what that is, isn't that strange?) and I have gotten the cutest stuff custom made and ordered for her special day.  I am so excited.

I will try to write and post more here soon.  We have taken so many great pictures and so many fun and funny things have been going on lately.  We are really blessed and we are praising the Lord each day!  (Speaking of which, Trenton gave up sweets for Lent and is doing great.  I am so proud of him!!!)

♥ JMB ♥

Three years ago today I lost the best friend I've ever had to leukemia.  It was quick (just a few days from diagnosis to passing) and the shock of all of it still takes my breath away.

I don't want to just honor Jannon on the anniversary of her death, but want to honor her everyday.  Losing her has changed my life...but having her as my best friend for 15 years REALLY changed my life. 

Jannon was the most beautiful, graceful, loving, funny, honest, smart and loyal person I have ever known.  Oh, if only more people were like her!  On a daily basis I try to live my life the way that she lived hers.  I have never known a person more full of life!

I am so angry that she is gone.  There are a million times a week I want to pick up the phone to tell her something...to hear her laugh her crazy laugh...to cry to her because I know she would be the only one to understand.  I can't breath when I think about not seeing her face and talking to her everyday...and that my children can't know how lucky their mommy was.  It hurts to think that she won't be a mommy because she would have been the best one.

I know she is with me and there isn't a thing in the world that doesn't make me think of her.  I hope my children are as blessed as I was to have a best friend who will do anything for you and to support you- that they can laugh with and share their darkest days with.  And I pray they never know the loss so deep of losing your very closest friend. 

I can hear that infectious laugh now and what she would think about me ending up with Trenton.  I know she would be thrilled but I know she would really bust my chops about it.  We really tortured and teased him in high school and those are some of my favorite memories.  I know she would get the biggest kick out of the girls and who they are growing up to be.

I have a million pictures of us...this is one of my favorites.

This picture was taken the weekend I found out I was pregnant with Cooper.

I love this picture from high school.

JMB- I love you and miss you more each day more than the one before.